And you are aware that you’re being pretty bitchy to someone, but you can’t stop anyway? And there’s a chance to apologize or to turn things around, but you continue being a bitch? And then the conversation’s over and that person leaves and now you can only ask yourself why you didn’t stop and shut the fuck up when you had a chance. And you sit around for a while until you have the courage to bring it up and apologize and you just KNOW that that person is going to accept it and it’ll be good, but you know you won’t be able to stop feeling guilty. Especially because they accepted your apology so easily.

I’m sitting around right now, waiting for my “courage reserves” to fill up.

Note to self: PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, SAY NOTHING THE NEXT TIME YOU’RE LIKE THIS.